I can’t believe my teaching practice is over, I’m so relieved. I feel I should fill you in at this point. You may know that I haven’t had the best of experiences at School 2. At times, the staff have been very unsuportive (it is not useful nor constructive to tell a trainee teacher “You’re going to fail, why do you want to be a teacher?”) and the pupils have been uncontrolable. I’ve been off school on more than one occasion with panic attacks and a general feeling of death. But now there’s only a few days to go and I’m so excited! The end is near!
I’ve been trying to figure out how I’ve developed as a teacher and as a human being in the last few months. And I can safely say I’ve been worn to the bone. I used to be a fairly confident person, now I barely talk to anyone. I hate School 2 for making me lose all faith in myself. I’m trying so hard to cling on to the good feelings I had in School 1 but it’s difficult. It’s so upsetting to think I’ve actually regressed as a teacher.
I’m trying hard to claw myself back and teach at least a few good lessons at School 2. I really can’t remember any and I’ve been there for 50 school days!!
We can do this, guys. I’m so sorry these posts haven’t been very frequent but, as anyone who’s been through teacher training knows, all you want to do is sleep!
